my advice in case you are really concerned about your health in these days: quit smoking. check your nutrition. overhaul your mental state. take care about your environment. reflect yourself, not your teenage-angsty illusions stirred up by machiavellian hypocrits and fortune tellers.

ps. also before 7 october 2001 wars were waged all over the world that could make one waking up drenched in fear. nothing's gonna change except your reception. ok, ok, better care late than never... just how long will this caring last?